Love...my life

I am in love with a man, who is troubled.  It doesn't make the road with him easy, however, he is someone who I would love to spend my life with, wake up to and shower with kindness and love for the rest of my life.  One of the last times we spoke and spent time together he expressed his feelings for me, said I bring him balance, I make him want to be better, that he misses me, and thinks of me all the time.  Then we got together for a wonderful time.  Then we went from him talking to me every day, calling me sometimes twice a day, to nothing.  Nothing for, as of tomorrow, five weeks.  He has done this a couple times before and has always come back... I pray that happens again, because I miss him, and more and more he weighs on my mind.
Please God, if you hear me through the written word, let this man miss me so much that he can't go another moment without me, that he calls me, invites me over so we can see each other.
I miss him.  I love him.
I am tired of being without someone who I can spend the rest of my life with...I'm tired of being alone and doing everything alone.  Here is a man who is kind to me, who cares and loves me, and all I want is to spend some time with him, be next to him, hear his voice.
I want what everyone else wants in life.  A husband, a house of our own, a life shared with someone who is good, kind, handsome, smart, and brings me balance, with support and love.  The opportunity to travel and share those experiences with a good man, the man who I love and who loves me.
I have never understood why I have had to wait so long to have the one thing we all want, a special someone to share our life with, but waiting has gone from me being impatient to a deep hurt.  I know what it is I want in life, I just don't know how to get there.  It hurts watching those around me get the life we all want, the life that I also want, and yet I feel like I am on the outside looking in wondering, praying when will it happen for me.