Aldi's

This morning I was walking into Aldi's and I realized, for the past three years I have been going to this location.  Three years ago I was substantially struggling with life. I had no home, I had no job, and I was heartbroken. Each day I was taking baby steps to piece it all together just to get through the moment so I could heal.
Now, three years later I am still going to the same Aldi's. This time I am in a different position. I have one full time job and three part time jobs. Steady paychecks coming in to pay the bills and help me get caught up on the debt that has piled up over the years. I am not broken, but not fully healed either. Not yet.
The new situation of stress in my life is my day job. I am very thankful and grateful for this job and very grateful for the paycheck that comes every two weeks. However, I am immensely unhappy and gradually becoming more and more unhealthy. What is the true cost to having a paycheck from a company who is running you into the ground and taking advantage of you? Yet, here I am walking in through the sliding glass doors, knowing I am still on a tight budget, but not scared I won't be able to afford vegetables and fruits for my chickens. However, as I walk through the aisles of this small grocery store, I am fighting tears, doing what I can to avoid eye contact so I don't have a moment of weakness that would make me start to cry.
While I don't know what to do exactly here, I do need a job, I want to get ahead and ideally I want to buy a house in the next few months. In order to do that - I need to work, and keep this current position so I can stay in good standing with the bank for my potential house loan. I want to try and keep this job until May, then I can go enjoy their company picnic, and hopefully have found more rewarding employment by then. I'm burnt out, frustrated, unhappy, and desire to be in a completely different career field. Which is why when one has a goal, they need to find the drive within them to pursue it. The road to success is paved with a million stories. Everyone has gotten to where they are differently.
We are all on our own journey. Often we will have set backs, fall down, skin our knees, have hurt feelings, but we have to get up and move forward. Maybe all you can do is take the smallest steps in the world as you fight through your hurt and pain. It doesn't matter the size of the step, you just have to take them one foot in front of the other. What is amazing about our journey is the people, the life experiences that we will encounter and endure during those steps which are being taken.
Then, the next thing you know, three years have passed, and you have more wisdom, more of a life lived, and the hurt is even further behind you.
No matter where you are today, you can be somewhere completely different tomorrow, next month or next year. Maybe your physical location is the same, but the path to where you truly want to be in life, can be achieved with hard work and dedication.
It certainly will not be easy - no one ever said this would be easy and those who have, lied. However, that hard work you put in today will pay off, maybe not immediately, but with time you will see a change. IF you want to put in the effort.