This is my new blog, a new year, new endeavors and hopefully some break through life changing (in a positive way) opportunities.
Today I was praying about whether or not I am meant to stay in Nashville. I could continue to write part time for the regional horse magazine, and bust my butt at getting into more well known and national publications. I have a regular full time job which pays my bills...as best as it can. I'm not immune to the debt we all face in life. Yesterday, I returned from my first vacation in over three and a half years. The past two years have been as close to hell as I have personally ever faced.
Today, as I drank the coffee my roommate kindly made, I was reminded this is all I will have for breakfast for a while. No more of the endless options of food to eat in the comfort of the Wisconsin family home. I was reminded I am here to face my mounding debt that I don't even know how I will get paid off. My truck came to a couple of jolting halts on me, flashing low oil and a red check engine sign. No job in Wisconsin, but family, support and low paying work.
What do I do?
Then out of no where, my friend Theresa sent me a text that was God speaking loud and clear. With no conversation leading to this statement, Theresa said to me, "Bloom Where You Are Planted :)"
This lead to me crying while I drove down the Interstate to go and feed my chickens. Once on the other side of town, I drove by a church which had an uplifting statement on its sign by the street, it said something along the lines of God and His perfect timing.
I'm sure there is also a part of me who has the strain of lingering on the idea I may have offended a friend last night. This is a person I deeply respect and admire. I apologized, but he has not texted me back. I know I need to turn this all over to God and just let it go. If what I said did offend him, then I did what I could to make it right. If he just fell asleep and doesn't feel like talking, then I am over thinking it anyway.
To push towards my goals of being a published writer/author, I am starting a new blog. This year I am going to have my work be more focused last year. Last year I made an attempt to write a page a day in life. Life kept going up and down, in and out and keeping up with a daily writing project became more than I thought it would be. This year I am hoping to do a post a week, that should be more manageable. I plan on writing about my hopes, dreams, goals, things that happen in my life and the desire of having love in my life in all capacities. Considering I do a lot of writing on horses, there will probably be a few posts about them as well. Maybe even on my dog and chickens, as they too are a part of my life.
2015 brought trials, tribulations, struggle and a slow, painfully slow, step towards an improvement in my life.
Maybe, just maybe 2016, will be the year when those baby steps turn into bigger steps and takes me into a even better place than I could ever imagine. After all, I want what anyone else wants, to be happy, to be loved, to have a home that I share with the man who will be my husband.
God be willing.
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